By Emily Chance
One of the worst things about life is that something bad will always happen, and those bad things usually come in threes. The worst part about these bad things in threes is that they occur regardless of your attempts to make everything good and right again.
I’ve been trying to turn my life around for the better, and all I feel is a deep sadness that goes away for a little while when I’m keeping myself busy, but always returns when I’m alone with my thoughts.
I try to work out, but I get injured or have skin complications. I go to a doctor for health issues and they turn me away saying “it’s probably nothing,” then charge me over $100 for visiting because of a worry. I try to find a new job, but the job I really want and really need wants a recommendation from my boss. I can’t ask my boss for a recommendation because I don’t want them to know I’m quitting my less than minimum wage job in order to pursue something that would help me out further in the future, such as a quality education. If they were to find out I was actively searching for jobs, they might fire me before I have another job lined up to go into or they might treat me differently than the other employees they have.
I know these are first world problems, but it doesn’t make it easier when you’re trying the best you can to accomplish something and it all turns to crap in your hands. I just want to be happy again, but in order to do that, I need to change certain aspects of my life. However, every time I try to change something, something else pops up to block that change.
Sometimes I feel like life gets its fuel from personal failures. Sometimes I just lie in bed and accept that, but I hate feeling defeated. I try to better my existence, but life gets in the way with death, poverty, illness, or hate. I try to be strong, and I try to retaliate and better my existence out of spite, but I also know it’s okay to just curl up into the fetal position and cry. In fact, sometimes it is necessary.
I don’t wish to burden anyone with any of my own issues. I know everyone in the world has their own version of the terrible threes. I just want everyone to know that whatever they’re going through, they are not alone. It is okay to cry and want to give up, but is in the best interest of everyone to push through and keep fighting for the better existence. Surely life can’t keep us all down.
Edited by: Reagan Greenwood